FuckFuckFuck,

no one understands how much i truley hate my life.

i’m really greatfull for living and everything. it justt.. my fucking family, they piss the fuck otta me.. i swear i think ther gonna split up. and when they do im literaly going to jump up and screamm yay.

ihatemymom.  no one gets how much.. shes A BITCH. yeah everyone calls there mom that, but i really mean it. she has like mental issues or fucking something. i just wish  they would give me up for adoption. and  swear if they cause this fucking thing again im running away to live with my sister.. and im calling the fucking president to like fucking get them the FUCK outta my fuckingg lyfe. i think i could live way better on my own.. then what time my shitt mother dose on me..

FML.

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Ohh Woww.

I’m so stupid,                 Why did i tell him to do that ?

Couldent i have just stayed alone ? Apparently not.

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Fuck you,

And fuck all this,

Bullshit.

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Good & Broken,

I have a feeling somethings gonna change tomorrow, I just can’t put my finger on it. Well, As usual i’m writting about him, & only him. He’s been on my mind so much its not even funny anymore. Like at first i just thought yeah, it’ll go away, Well, It didnt. Ohmyyy, WHat am i going too do when it becomes a year ? How am i going too handle it ? Will he know what that day is ? will he know what it means ? or will it just be another ordinary day for him, A day like no other, I’m pretty sure he’ll have no thought whats so ever on what that special day is. When it dose come, I really don’t think i can be able to bare it. I’ll probably just cry the whole day, I’m crying just about the thought of it. Mann, Did this one guy to this ALL to me ? am i really that messed up ? how will my friends react ? Well, if i ever told them.. Too be completely honest .. He will be my true first love for the rest of my life, What happens when were all twenty and thirty years old and we run into eachother ? Do you know how awcward thats gonna feel ? I can’t even begin to imagin how hard that will be, How tough that will be on me … Am i gonna be able too handle all this ? I think not.. Maybee i need some menttal help with this, Maybe just assistence, You know.. Mann, I wish my friends could be a bit of help, But no, They just.. Wouldent understand, Not at all. Maybe i’ll tell * Her *, But that’s it.. Ohh, &.. Well WHat am i going too do noww. My bestfriend is now.. Going out with him.. i Find that just.. Just terrible. And after all i told to her, And all the times she said ” no Hayley i don’t like him. ” It was just.. All a LIE. A big fatt lie. Woww. Just think about all this makes my mind spin round and round. I think i’m going crazy ? Like really.. how will i ever end this ?

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E♥M♥K

I just got all my hopes high,                                                                       Then when I’m at the climax,..
He just crushes everything, All the hopes that i just made,



All the skipped little heart beats because i thought it was gonna happen,

The one smile i had left in me,     The last hope i had..
Yeah He just crushed it.                 All of it.




Everything..
&& He’s just gonna act like air flew by..
” asdfgfuckasdfgnhsmbvcgkve. “
This is never gonna end, I can feel it.        Can i leave now ?
Can i just ask god to go in my head and erase all possable memory’s i have of him, Pleaseee ?                                                                                                    I don’t think very possitive about him anymore..      



I have nothing more left too say,

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Alright,

I’m just gonna get this off my chest, I have some things too come clean about.. So, The one i love, And i mean truley & utterly in love with hates my guts and dosent want anything too do with me, And i’m coming clean that I’ve figured out how stupid i am for loving someone what will never love me back,

&& When i say never, I mean never.

I just can’t love him, I can’t.. If god ever knew how much i loved him,                        He’d be..  Pretty shocked at how much love i’m giving towards just one person.

The next thing i want too come clean about is..                                                    I love his best friend also. Wow. Dose this sound stupid to you ? Because it dose to me.                                How..  How could of let this happen, How could i have fallen for him too.

I sound like a hoe, I know. I agree.           You’re probably thinking, ” She’s a whore. “…   But,                       Actually, I’m not.    I’m really not.                                  I just have strong feelings for…      Let’s just leave it at that..

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He Dosen’t Make Sense !

I’M SO CONFUSED !

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I needed help with all this.. So i went too sam, The only one i can go too..

I think i lead michael on, And now sean asked me out, And like i think i like him, but i think i like michael, But at the same time.. I still like preston alot.. And i really just want to go out with preston, But like sean will bee Sooo Pissed off at me, And michael will be SUPER dissapointed„ And like sean just asked me out, And i didnt reply, And he was like just answerr. And i was like i didnt answer yeyt becuase.. When ever i start a boyfriend girlfirned relationship with with my really good firnds, it back fires and i end up loosing them, And i dont wanna loose sean, And then like preston asked me out, And i didnt reaply, I just dont know what too say.. And then he was like just answer, Its a simple yes or no qeustion.. And sam i don’t know what too do.. Becuase like i told michael too wait a little while, And he’s already ben waiting, Awhie.. And uhhh !. i just wish i was a turtle sometimes so i can just crawl in my shell and hide form all this…

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Here We Go,

I geuss i’ve never really thought about how much i’m an ideot,


Gosh, I’m so messed up.


I thought this over && Over..

I think i’m gonna take a risk, Take a chance,

Make a little change, But how ?

How am i going to dot this, And not hurt him.

Impossible Much ?

Yeah i think so, “What A’m I Going To Do ?” Godd, LOVE IS SO DAMM CONFUSING!, Never had to do something like this before, && The biggest qeustion of all is, How a’m i going to do this..

Mann, i love tumbler, I just love getting this of my chest..

Butt.

Theres so much more..

More, That i can’t even begin to start..

It all goes way back, Like back when i didn’t know what love ment.

And from this day i still don’t know..

But i got a pretty good idea of how it impack’s so many people & it’s just about two people, Wowwa,

Let’s just leave it at,


I’m Confused..

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